So Used....

Dear Diary- 2/7

I remember more clearly what happened.  Mountain guy raped me.  I never gave him permission to do what he did to me.  I'm scared. I don't know what to do. This kind of thing never happens to me.  What will he do if I called the police?  Will the police even do anything about it?  I doubt that they would believe me.  They might even think that I encouraged it...or something.  Mountain guy is strong.  If I call the police, how do I know he won't try to kill me? 

I just don't know what to do but cry. 

I feel so used.  I feel dirty.